cupid.......will kill u!

I hate when it happens.....with me almost, regularly!
I am sick of it and tired ...

Still, go on the same path,
Still, love hurting myself
Still, love feeling miserable

I Feel like kicking between the legs
.........what the heck.....
I am ready to trade my heart with another set of brain..Atleast that will keep me out of trouble...... anyone ready to excahnge?
and no ordinary trouble, the mother of all...it can screw up everything......from ur mood to life
yet I still indulge and regret.

Perplexity!

Indecisive, yes that is what I am!

Too dependent on others for a decision, as long as I can remember.
I have never taken a decision and stick to it, and that is exactly what my problem is!

Do not know when to draw the line and when to embrace the sunshine.
Screwed up completely in the head is how I describe myself,
Wanted to do so much, wanted to climb yet I am still missing my 'cloud nine'!!

Will I ever reach the top can I ever fly, I lack on will my wish is fine
Losing the hope, I feel I am falling wanted to crawl but it still feels appalling!!

I am annoyed and I am embarrassed 'coz all I have is effort and no direction,
Need a mentor for my resurrection!

Happens sometimes!

Pretensions are just not my thing!
Was forced to attend a party y'day , lots of friends offcourse not mine. Good food and drinks, but the combination sucks! Discussions about things and people you have never heard, jokes that do not click, people who donot match and yes duffers who cannot think.
And absolute misplacement, but happens with everybody!!

Kept sipping my drink in the other room and talking on the phone.

Sometimes it just doesn't happen, no matter how much you try.Best way I suggest is take a break from the crowd and enjoy your own private party.

Trust me it feels amazing too!
:)